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2005-03-17T20:52:00.000-08:00

its weird and stupid how my mind goes up uP UP UP UP for one second. then the next minute. im going DOWN DOWn DOwn Down down. it really sux. i miss my mother. i need to do chem. i have to practice piano. i have my essay outline to do.

i want to cry.

i want to just hug someone and just let them keep me warm and let me cry in their arms. yet its hard to find someone like that now.

im sick of it. im sick of being so stupidly overobssessed about stupid things. and over stupid ppl and over just, stupid things. we'll leave it at that.

i'm tired of having to live up to who im supposed to be when im not. i tired of ppl assuming that i should be a certain way or live up to their standards.

itz like im being thrown across the room, battered up into piece. and then i have to look up at the person throwing me and smile at them and say im good im okay, i still love you.

im just tired.

i got my g1 today. thaz about the only fun thing i did. other than filming bible.. haha that wuz fun ramy as "sanka" lol hahaha hilarious. and then nine-oh doing his little... rasta thing. lol

other than that dinner was okay i guess. i wuz the only girl.. totally didnt want to be there... never want to do it again. anyone ask me to dinner with a group the answer is no.

no. did you hear me? no.

i dont feel like listening to my own voice anymore. i'll just shut up from now on. mayb i can become a mute. oh great idea! become a mute. shut up karen. just shut it.

glimpse of march break

2005-02-26T16:00:00.000-08:00

today i went hihi's bday party.... i laughed SOOO much i wuz rolling all over the floor and every1 wondered wut the heck was wrong with me. we saw raise your voice... and oh wow... OLIVER JAMES IS SO HOT!!! WAAAH! HOTTTTIEEEE! neway... after that we ate kfc and pizza. i sed i wuldnt eat fat foods but i did... freak

then went to fairview library to get a move on that hotdog freak proj... sigh. nadine forgot about me!!! gaaah! but then she came in the end so itz all good. then my ma took me to fairview mall to eat... MCDONDON!!!! GAAAAH more fried fooood ... then lychee bbteaaaa yummmmmmmmmm neway... blabla tons and TONS of work this weekend... i think im gonna die

God help me. Praise be to God that March Break is near. and also Praise be to God that i have tuesday to recuperate. Thank you... i think im dying soon.... gah!

ps> ppl, plz pray for tim tim gor whoz really sick....

wut to say? wut to do?

2005-02-24T21:01:00.000-08:00

itz like i havnt blogged in this one for such a long time, so now im bloggling... bio test. i wuz wailing over that today. the ENTIRE SCHOOL heard me. that is the SADDEST THING EVER. that bio test wuz SO HARDDDD!!! i completely failed! FAILED DYU HEAR?

dead meat. i am dead meat. tomolo - report cards are being handed out. i hope i get above queen's standards. gaah im screwd.

there so much to do, yet *i usually end it here with yet so little time* but this time i'd like to end it with I DONT WANT TO DO IT! BLAH BLAH AND PLAH ALL OVER i dying. therez the friggin hot dog assignment due monday. histo test wednesday. sap isp friday. math test friday. english macbeth essay friday.

i mean how bad culd i get? HONESTLY! i feel like crying.... gosh plah PLAH!

sigh... im angry that im not getting ANY WORK DUN AT ALL! and that im being foolish and WASTING MY STUPID FRIGGIN TIME IN EVERYTHING BUT FRIGGIN SCHOOL! i hate myself sometimes. i contradict myself. i hate that.

so on sat, im going to hihi's bday partay. relaxation. fun. thank God. i think im gonna die soon. wut shuld i get her for her bday?! garrrrrr........

ps.> i think shirley and hawick lau are like THE cutest couple EVER! like WOWZEEEE... if i fit that well in someone's arms.... sigh. what a bliss.

...secret serenade...

2005-02-12T13:04:00.000-08:00

actually, i quite enjoyed last night's piano lesson... the teacher played me all the etudes from the study book... it wuz nice. I love music. it really touches my soul in some obscure way. i know im not really talented in making music. but music really touches me... i dno y. my teacher chose me a new piece called serenade. it is LOVELY. actually. i really like that word. lovely.

i decided to dedicate my blog to that - the secret serenade. wouldnt it be romantic if the guy i love serenaded me in secret. lovely.

"...a secret serenade..."

hm im watching two new shows actually. i finished waterpot. which was - quite good. chilam still has the cutest dimples in the world. AND tavi is so cutez. i also finished wong fei hung. WOW bosco - droolzzz... hehe neway... TWO new shows again. 1) My Family {starring: hawick lau- my newest hottie; alex fong- muscless mmm; shirley- which is a bit of a shame} 2) Lost in the Chambers of Love {starring: ron ng, michelle yip, kenneth ma, myolie wu}

NO COMMENT about litcol (#2) - okay well herez a comment. everyone looks pretty ugly in costume drama. about number 1 my family. WOW i think i've discovered the tru hottie... mr. hawick lau. he is SO SO SO SO hottttt wowz! that first scene where he wuz eating potatoes.... and he wuz munching away... i drooled... hez hot. sad tho that he might b paired with... shirley. *barf*

in acc class mrs. cracknell showed us the beginning of the movie "hook" ... basically a peter pan story. the atmosphere of the movie makes me GUSH. it is so sweet and dainty and delicate and - magical, yes thaz the word. i love it. it is lovely. the little boys are SO cute *plz dont call me a pedafile* but i think the little boys are SOOOOOO adorably KEYOOOOOTE! .... i luv the story. "never never land" is SO cute... yes im still gushing

"never grow up..."

booo wut else to say. yes... my father has been discussing with me plans for hte future. like about univ and everything. my mother sat across the table glaring at me, as if daring me to speak. i dont know whats wrong with me. i'm taking calculus for sure. i've decided boooo. wut am i gonna do when i grow up? ... wait. aren't I grown up now?

"...am i a grown up yet?"

mayb a writer, mayb a teacher, mayb mcDonDon garbage lady, mayb... an underwater basket weaver. wutever God's plan for me is

on the second thought. mayb God wants me to go and be part of TVB series... hmmm lemme rethink that

"what's God's plan for me?"

boooo wut else... itz cuz i havnt blogged in so long... im trying to see wut i have to say. oh yes - my dad sed today "i wuz killing some time..." take a second. close your eyes. think of that sentence. how do u "kill time"? ... i know itz an idiom. but... think about ... kill time... therez something deeply disturbingly ironic about that

"...kill some time..."

neway lemme leave u with a last quote

"...keep dreaming, u never know where they'll lead u..."

that'll do. adieu.

p.s. i added a few more friends links. i want a joint blog with a friend... vic sai low mayb? wuh bout calyra or kafoo?

prayer

2005-01-28T18:35:00.000-08:00

wow... so much has been going on... like i dont even know where to start....

im beginning to feel that God is leading me to certain paths that i need to ... walk into... paths that i need to choose... paths that... are so evident... for one thing God has laid in my heart to pray for a girl... who still needs to accept Christ... just pray that the ppl around her will touch her with their Christian spirit...

so last night... i wuz like in a fit of depression because of well... because of the ppl around me of course... such as.... well i dont feel like saying... lets just say a lotta my friends need prayer

neway... so i wuz really sad... cuz of sai low vic... oh nevermind i cant do this nemore...

sigh... okay so wut else... actually macbeth is quite interesting... even if this is my third time studying this... thing... sighhhh so like yea... skool's okay i guess...? i dno nemore

shuld i take calc? ppl are telling me to take calc.... but i dont want to... what should i do?

God help me... and lead me where You want to lead me.

a poem from long ago... i think it still applies

2005-01-13T07:32:00.000-08:00

until now i hav not noticedhow much i think of u...

the intensity i feel...when i feel your eyes upon me...

when i close my eyes, all i see is u...

my heart flutters at your name...

when i look into your eyes...

itz like i cant breathe

when i talk to u itz like i cant speak

im dreaming of u... dreaming of me...

dreaming of u...u utter tender words of love to me...

but it is just a dream... just a dream......

why am i being so stupid again

2005-01-13T07:00:00.000-08:00

i like feel pain that i dont want to feel... i hate this what is going on? i really need to be studying like RIGHT now... i should be burying myself in books... textbooks and all that stuff... i hate myself... why? what is seriously wrong with me? i've been sleeping at like 9 everynight and my parents are starting to think im a freak okay? itz realy sad... im frustrated mainly with myself! and im like... going crazy i think this is going to drive me nuts one day...

i need to study... i have to... why am i so depressed, why am i letting distractions hinder my school life? please, someone help me

sigh nightmares

2005-01-12T05:11:00.000-08:00

i slept at 9pm last night and this morning i woke at like 7... sigh... i had a terrible night, dont even know why... sigh what is wrong with me these days? why does THAT THING have to plague me? i honestly TRIED to study for eng but... i just CANT FOCUS! will someone please help me focus? GAAAH

... dear sai low vic, if you're reading this i want to say thanx so much for helping me all these days, you are the best little brother a girl could ever have

a stupid blog

2005-01-11T16:51:00.000-08:00

sigh... man i dont even know what is wrong with that person anymore... itz like i hurt SO much when they hurt... and they dont even know it that it is hurting me when they hurt so much... when they are hurting i feel like im hurting with them... every time i see them frown, half my heart drops and wishes i was with them to share with them... i want to give them warmth as they have given me warmth when they hurt for me...im so stupid

sigh... that whole blurb was screwd up... but i think u get the message... i love that person SO much but it's like i'm of little importance to them... why are we drifting? i hate the feeling of me seeing them far away from me, yet always getting the feeling that i love them so much... i dont understand... God help me and help that person realize how much i love them. i just hope someone can understand... the feeling of despair seeing that person so far away from me, while their smile their eyes their every move seems to make me fall deeper into that hole called love
i hate myself for feeling this way. i hate myself for thinking of that person in this way. i hate the feeling of how that person will never realize and will never find this blog sitting here, waiting for them to read it. i hate this feeling.

i dont know what is wrong with me, suddenly im all emotionalized about that person when im not supposed to be. when i swore i would never again. why? can anyone answer me please? please?
im sitting here wondering why i'm really typing this out. ppl out there will think this little teen girl is being stupid. i think in our own way we're all a little stupid.
pardon this stupid blog, this little stupid part of me i hope has gone away into the blog and wont be part of me ever again. i hope that these emotions will come out of me, like i have poured out into the blog

may your dreams of love come true, and may mine stay the way they are

jacqueline has no patience

2005-01-07T09:11:00.000-08:00

currently in the computer lab TRYING to do some eng hw... but jac is frustrated about thinking for a theme... im pretty frustrated

jac: u eat only the pastry? the meat iz wut the whole patti about? mphmmphmm the patti is good
karrot: plz dont choke
jac: hmmhmmhmmhmm *lafter*

neway... im going off to do some english... gonna add unc 9OH's bloggle... chck it out! itz awesome

"how come i'm writing again?" - quote jac

2005-01-06T11:25:00.000-08:00

yes... i am typing out every word that jac sed again start now

jac: im gonna leave soon
karrot: u look dumb like that
jac: *startz cracking up like crazy*
karrot: okay.. itz really not THAT funny
jac: hahahaha im gonna start crying soon *startz reading grim grotto*
karrot: stop reading
jac: sniff sniff mhmmhmmhmmhmmhmm
jac: that duznt make sense
karrot: u were the one who said it!
jac: *bites lip and laughs* haha bites lip and laughs
karrot: she's reading it get it? hahaha
jac: huh? i dont get it
karrot: typical jac phrase
jac: hahha hahah hahahah hahha
karrot: u look dumb again
jac: hmm hmm hmm

.end of conv.

im bored and im hoping for a snowday!

2005-01-06T11:11:00.000-08:00

helooooooz therez PRETTY PRETTY SNOOOWWWW outside and itz byooooootiful!!!! really PREETTTTY!!! heheheheheheh jac wants to say something... but i wont let her... haha jks

jac: i dont want to say anything
karrot: u just sed something
jac: *giggle* giggle sounds weird
karrot: haha
jac: tahaha yes?
karrot: nothing... just waiting for you to say something stupid
jac: i think you are hallucinating

I LOVE BOSCO EVERYONE!!! EVERYONE MEET BOSCO MY HUBBY... wait... ron's my hubby.... wait.... ray's my hubby.... nevermind....

jac: i'm sorry karrot, you can only choose one
karrot: TOO BAD THEY'RE ALL MINE
jac: thaz very selfish and mean
karrot: HEY! EVERYONE JAC SED I HAVE A WEIRD BUTT
jac: i didnt say that
karrot: YES U DID I DONT HAVE WEIRD BUTT

neway... i luv bosco and hate ode to west wind

jac: i only asked you to try liver
karrot: pfffff lies

neway.... school is terrible... exams are terrible blahhhhh chck out my fanfics... hahahha guess wut? i made 2 posters... plz do chck them out!

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v290/blu_karrot/remember.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v290/blu_karrot/conqueringlove.jpg

plz comment!!!! i think bosco is hot! ^___^ I LOVE BOSCO

i also love jap food... jap food is good

jac: do u like frog legs?
karrot (yelling): WHAT KIND OF A RANDOM QUESTION IS THAT?
jac: itz not a random question, you were talking about jap food and it reminded me of frog leggs
karrot (shakes her head and sighs): you are stuipd
jac: you spelled stupid wrong

neway... bak to my random comments.... im so bored! plz entertain me

jac: u sed we need to finish this plz lets finish!!!

okay better go... jac is gonna kill me soon

a regular day...at skool...

2005-01-04T15:34:00.000-08:00

man... today... let's see wut happened today... sigh... ppl out there here is another one of my rantings... if u dont wanna hear it u can go now... SIGHZ... so today... started with waking up at 5AM to study for bible test... goodness... that 225 words... man it killed me to mmrze that thing... and then i had sc meeting... blabla... talk bout stuff... had bible...

okay guys... i failed the test... im so dead i swear.... right after the test... gosh! melody told me bout how the last two ESSAY QUESTIONS were supposed to be chap 5 + 6 evidences...

OMGOSH! THAT THING WUZ LIKE OUT OF 30! I SWEAR IM SO DEAD..... oh my... i shuldnt be worrying... i shuld trust God... okay ya... lalala so then lol seriously i really sorta think that half the skool thinks a have a bf named BOSCO WONG! which it dont... itz just a dream! A DAYDREAM! ... he is quite good looking ^.~ wehehehehe neway... like arthur... lol he thought i wuz going out! lol he wuz so shocked... and then mr. vermont found out... from my msn name... gosh... lol and then so many other ppl heard me in the lunch room speaking about him.... but itz JUST a celebrity... goshie... sigh... so yea... he's really good looking

lol neway... after that bosco affair... found out my acc exam is... sadly TOMOLO... so im dead for that too lol... cuz it's journalizing and guess wut?! I HATE JOURNALIZING!
hmmz wut else.... OH YES! much thanx to CURTTTTT ... cuz hez such a gentleman and hez so nice and hez such a sweetie... he helped me fix up my BLOGGLE!!! dont u guyz just LOVE the color?! blue.... light blue... blissful, beautiful... the theme is ANGELIC TEARS.... tears... hmmm sigh

neway.. so i wuz on devo today.. .and it wuz so very embarrassing cuz shaina started cracking up in the middle of the Bible verse i wuz reading... you know wut? i think i wuz REALLY scared so i started blurting out "like" every other word... so it wuz like... making everyone think i wuznt serious... but i wuz VERY serious about wut i wuz saying.... and i think the overall message of my devo got across... so im glad for that... i really hope and pray my next devo in front of the class will be MUCH better... sighz

okay... wut else went wrong today... oh right... spare OMGOSH! that wuz terrible! i think i might hav.... dont something i shuldnt hav and i scared away a person i really didnt want to scare away ... but wtv at least we're talking now... other than that i wasted another spare looking at pix of bosco, ron, ray, tav, leila, etc.... dude it wuz SO hilarious, calyra kafoo and me were like laffing at dayo wong's singing... hahaha and then we sang along... laffing SO hard lol

LALALA so ya... praise be to God that i am dun my bible test... even tho i did terribly... lol oh well ... now im just hoping and praying that i will be able to have self-control and not be TOO bos-obessed

hellooooo

2005-01-04T07:50:00.000-08:00

testing...seeing if new layout works...been bugging out for a bit.

happy new year

2005-01-01T15:00:00.000-08:00

waaaah... how long havnt i bloggled for? ... a long time... hehehe tehehehe lalalaz i've changed like a few layouts during that time all thanx to the WONDERFUL currrtissss thanx curt ^___^ teeeheee well the new year starts today... resolutions? hehe 1) not change crushes every month 2) try to get good marks..... which means nothing below 80 3) ... sigh do devos...
so neway... other than thaaaaat HAPPY NEW YEAR! gwahahahaha ^___^ hmmm with exams comin up... i think im going to be on STRESS METER 2000000 sigh..... after exams are dun i PROMISE to bloggle more... sigh
neway if u still havnt chckd it out i made a special Christmas fanfic... cast is Ron Leila Raymond Bosco Tavia.... hehe www.winglin.net/fanfic/swt_Christmas

it's called Sweet Christmas- To you with Love... i hope u guyz can find some time to chck it out... if not ... blah wtv ^___^ hehe well i'm off....

ps. watching new RAY + LEI show ... The Last Breakthrough ^___^ bosco's in it... and i think i'm falling for himmm... dang hez a qt

test..

2004-12-26T19:59:00.000-08:00

just a test to see if things are working..

the incredibles

2004-12-03T10:23:00.000-08:00

kinda late for this lol.... cuz itz been like 3 dayz after i saw the incredibles... awesome movie!!! THE BABYYY IS SOOO CUTE

thank u God

2004-11-29T14:14:00.000-08:00

thank u all for yur support i luv u all
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thank u again

shalalalalala hiccup

2004-11-23T17:30:00.000-08:00

i hate my marks shalalalalala i hate my marks shalalalalalala im really high shalalalalala i finished the last of my inu tapes shalalalalala im doing chem shalalalalala havin' trouble with eng shalalalalala

ok enuff of that crap... lol im so bored out of my BRAIN... this morning i didnt go to the sc meeting... i wuz so DEAD ... i wuz literally SO tired and dizzy and headaches.... oh i wuz just about to explode... i almost culdnt SEE WHERE I WUZ GOING!!! so i fell bak on my bed and slept from 5-8am..... dying.... so i skipped it...

today i got my bible marks bak.. gosh he gave me a 6/15 instead of 14/15 ... I MEAN WHO DUZ THAT?!?! SHALALALALA

dang... now itz hiccup.... hiccup.... hiccup.... i hate hiccup.... arg... hiccup betta get off hiccup

p.s. i luv inuyasha and ron

at skool.... supposedly studying sap

2004-11-22T10:23:00.000-08:00

hey world... today.... wuz an OKAY day.... like okay kinda day... lol i dno... my marks arnt as bad as i hav imagined.... my math mark dropped 2% due to the fact that i got 62% on my friggin math test lol.. o well me dont care

my bible mark on the other hand...WENT UP!! my bible test mark wuz PRETTY good 89% wahaha... neway me at spare right now... and im bored out of my brain... im still going crazy about ron!!! LOOK AT MY PIX! RON, KAGOME, INUYASHA!! WEEEE!!!

happy bday tvb!!!

2004-11-21T22:08:00.000-08:00

today TVB's anniversary was aired in canada.... wow im so happy for everyone in TVB who got awards!!! and RON LOOKS SO SO SO HOT IN WHITE aaaaahhhhhhh screaaaamzzzz!!!! and nancy wuz actually really pretty today!!! so happyyyy GO BOSCO AS WELL!!! woooow go ron and bosco.... and for that matter, GO CHRIS LAI AS WELLLLL

actually watching the anniversary... i wuz really really um... inspired by Ada Choi who got 2 awards w/ Dayo of cos.... for TO CATCH THE UNCATCHABLE... awesome show.... so bak to topic... well Ada's a Christian ... and on stage she said "THANK YOU GOD FOR BLESSING ME WITH SUCH AN OPPORTUNITY" and think of this, this is like in front of the entire hong kong population, and almost ALL the chinese ppl all around the world... think of that... iznt that such a brave and..... just cool thing to say? ... THANX ADA U DID A BEAUTIFUL JOB

dang my rentz wont let me watch the rest of it... dang dang dang dang..... ugh! im so mad...but at least i got to see RON WEARING WHITE.... OHHHH HEZ SO HOTTTTTTTTT ~ *sizzle

obsession

2004-11-21T19:34:00.000-08:00

wow.... ray's voice is sexy... and ron's HOT ....

work work work

2004-11-21T19:07:00.000-08:00

im having a really hard time... doing chem... and i started gnawing at my face pretending to be "the beast" in "beauty and the beast" and my brother was walking by my room and he gives me the most... stupid face ever.... then he goes "you're not normal"

and im like = oh gosh... my bro is catching on to my "im normal" thing.... sighz*
neway.... chem... i hate limiting reactants with my GUTS i swear it.... sigh.... neway other than
that life is going okay.... cept the pile of work i still need to do....

plz pray for my eng journals... i cant find em... i wanna cry

duuuude inuyasha and sesshomaru is SO hot

2004-11-21T00:20:00.000-08:00

wooooooow ep 165-167 of inuyasha is SO GOOOOOD OMGOSH ... sigh.... im like going CRAZEEEEE over him and kagome..... goshhhhh i cant believe she was able to break naraku's soul thingy..... wow awesome.... sigh.... i luv it soo much i wish i wuz kagome.... i luv his ears!!! i wanna touch demmmm .... o gosh im turning into renkotsu... cept im not a man! haha

lol...posting AGAIN

2004-11-20T17:54:00.000-08:00

seriously, i think im like immune to my mother being in a bad mood.... and yelling at me.... sigh seriously i think im being stupid by saying this...

ender's shadow has put me into perspective about a lot of stuff.... stuff like im so ignorant.... mayb i shuld learn to shut up and listen more to wut other ppl are saying

onto happier topix... im really hav a relaxing weekend... this is awesome..... my maj rented tapes for me.... YAAY hehe... new series im watching: To Catch the Uncatchable

cast :: Dayo Wong Zhi Wah, Ada Choi Siu Funabsolutely hilarious couple.... itz a comedy cop show... some of the stuff that Dayo sez... wow so funny.... like roll on the floor laffing funny lol
quote: "...Yeuk yeew yun but jee, mm ho tai daei-B..." which meanz "... if u dont want to be caught, dont be stupid..." but it sounds funnier in chinese so i had to include it... wahaha, yes im weird

lalala betta go study for sap b4 somebody startz yellin at me again.... i'll try'n blog tomolo.... but i think my fam + me r goin to vaughn mills.... cant wait..... hmmm mayb i shuld get my work dun then lol

ps. im so sillie, i just realized that... lol my bro (ken) asked me to spell "savage" for him.... and i broke into song and dance of "savages" from POCCAHONTAS..... sigh yes im normal
"Savages, Savages, barely even human, Savages, Savages..."

aftermath... i am now sixteen

2004-11-20T11:19:00.000-08:00

... wow strange... being sixteen duznt really change too much... just a step in life.... im just a little wee bit sweeter... and a little wee bit bigger... lol... nothing much else... everything is the same still, teachers are still teachers giving assignment after assignment and test after test.... .... lemem recap how much i had this week....

monday- FREAKIN math test
wednesday- FREAKIN eng test and bio quiz
thursday- FREAKIN judaism test

out of all that i hav to the one i hated most wuz the FREAKIN judaism test.... wow i studies so FREAKIN hard for that... i hated it...... oh the other thing.... i got 50% on my bio quiz.... bye bye bio mark..... >.<" i hate myself lol

DUDE guess wut? TERM ONE ENDED!!! OH PLZ GOD HELP ME MAKE IT OUT ALIVE... DONT MAKE ME GO BELOW 80% AVG... I WILL DIE PLZZZ omgosh... now i regret it for not working hard enuff... i only hav myself to blame... i hate it

other than that.... wut else did i hav............ hmmm oh yea.... we were planning spirit week... for next week... and now itz postponed weird huh?... sighz... o wellzz GUESS WUT PPL NXT WEEK GD 11's ARE OFF TO SEE A MIDSUMMER'S NIGHT DREAM !!!! WEEEEEE~ GO SHAKESPEARE! wahahaha cant waaait

sweet sixteen* _gonna spread my wings_

2004-11-10T22:40:00.000-08:00

<-- the title is from Hilary Duff's old song "sweet sixteen" ... dont ask y... but i like that line....

today was my bday.... why the weird wording u ask? cuz on my bday, hehe i fergot to blog and tell u all about it... so today.... 10 days later ---- i will tell u about this....

my 16th bday.... wow.... my sweet sixteen, it was the best best best birfday of my whole life.... today, i hav realized the importance of friendship and .... just how much i hav taken for granted the ppl who love me so much... family, bffs, gors, sai lows, gah jehs, sai mui... wow i just want to take the opportunity again... to just THANK EVERYONE for everything... just little things here and there... cuz i kno, im human and sometimes i just take for granted the stuff that God has graciously blessed to me.... just thanx everyone

wow.... presents... i got WAY more than i deserve..... first i want to thank all my bffs: calyra, kafoo, hihi, ruth, jac, shainas.... just THANX SO MUCH FOR MAKING MY DAY THE BEST OF MY LIFE..... wow itz just so awesome....... quote kim h. "If my best friends did that for me, i'd die..." wow..... i mean how tru.... they gave me a HANGING SCRAPBOOK of the history of our friendship... i mean.... even during this stressful time, they found the time to DO THAT FOR ME.... i wuz touched to tears and i wuz literally bawling during lunch nonstop for 1/2 hr.... omgosh... and everyone wuz wondering wut the gay wuz wrong with me lol..... sigh..... i luv shaina's song dedication graduation by vitamin C.... itz a good song i like it

"As we go on, we remember,
all the times we had together..."

other blessings that i've taken for granted... i want to mention them.... my cuzn connie, THANK you for emailing to tell me that u havnt forgotten my bday... it means so much to me that u'd do that cuz i kno u hate using email lol... thanx

thanx to my parents... who always continue to support me no matter how much i rebel lol... thanx FOR GETTING ME MY cellie!!! i luv my cellie itz a samsung..... ask me for my cellie # lata ^____^ .... thank u maja for giving me my soft pretty rug... i luv it... it gives me warmth when im cold in da morning thanx

something i hav noticed today, my bday.... is wow hugs are special.... the emotions and the deep feelings behind a simple embrace can be so touching..... esp when given to those u truly luv *thanx for those my bffs*

neway... presents and thanx and shoutz to ppL....

HEIDI thank you for the CREATIVE shirt... and for assembling the surprise for me.... im so grateful, thank u to u.... im so bless becasue yur always there for me... thank you
LYRA thank you for everything, for being by friend, for tolerating me when i get annoying, lol as for bday stuff, THANX FOR THE BOOOTIFUL earrings
KAFOO thank you for your "surprise" hahaha O MI GOSH i LUVE the nohohon thing.... i ADORE IT wahahaha..... thanx for being so sillie at pmall... lol waving at the unknown person... lol thanx so much i luv yur present... "wut? ... wut? ... wut? wut? wut?.... wutwutwutwutwutwutwutwut?" LOL
JACLILY thanx for letting me make fun of u lol.... thanx for the laffs on my bday... thanx just thanx for telling me im yur parrot.... thanx
SHAINAS hahahaah MISHNAH --- KOVAH hahahaah bible class.... weeeena lol..... thanx for da song again... thanx for luving me.... thanx for yelling at me.... thanx
RUTH yaaaaaaaaay chem class hahahahaha thanx for supporting me and giving me such nice comments on the scrapbook.... your song is really encouraging thanx
MELODY thanx for my locker... my byoootiful decorated locker... thanx
SAI LOW VIC for your byoootiful blu card... for the words inside "No one can smile your smile, laugh your laugh, shine your light, and be wonderful in the way that is so indisputably you" thanx for that AND for keeping me on track on my hw.... even tho my marks will never b as good as yurs
LiL BRO BRAD for your card that u had to walk ALL the way over here to give me lol
SAM SAM GOR GOR for your note... that wuz FIRST out of all my goh's.... thanx for the drawn scarf lol i luv it!
TIM TIM GOR who wuz second.... i luv yur chinese!! wahahahaha
KA GOR for your TWO PAGE NOTE ... so surprising..... itz wonderful thanx for being so deep in my note lol....
DD GOR for your "happy bday"
AA GOR for your hug
Matt GOR for SAYIN u'd write me note haha
AD for being "mean" to me and for "hating" me lolz.... thanx for you bookmark.. itz AWESOME
ART DADDI + KIM H. MOMMIE thanx for the pashmina BLU scarf... I ADORE IT THANX THANX THANX I LUV U

for ne one i missed and for everyone who wished me happy bday... thanx for making my sweet sixteen the best a girl culd EVER EVER have... thanx thanx

hehehehe

2004-11-05T21:51:00.000-08:00

so far, i am enjoying my weekend.... thursday in the company of my bffs ... lyra, jac, kafoo, we went shopping and had sooooooo much funnnn at pmallll ^____^ hehehe we at korean food, had bbtea (lychee + green apple forevaaaa) and shopped for like 4 hrs .... we wanted to hav dan dan (egg cake waffley thingys that are in shapes of little balls) but we didnt in the end... lol we had dindin at mongolian grilllll and we had TONNNS of funnnnn .... i got a present of lil bro brad, for his bday in jan... got a pres for ad which turns out she ALREADY HAS THE SAME THING I BOUGHT >.< then we chipped in to buy a REALLY cute pres for valll (my sis) so neway... that wuz that.... sigh so much fun... hadnt had so much fun since fv last time..... sigh

neway friday wuz a disaster... argued with rents.... argued with bro... then argued with rents againnnnn sighhhh wut a sad day.....

im reading a new book called "Ender's GAme" WUT an awesome book... itz relaly cool hahaa itz about space wars and stuff...... readers must b thinking... IZ THIS THE REAL KARROT?! hahaha yes.... i decided to go for another genre... but this book, not only talks about scifi stuff but touches on the human heart soul and mind... awesome huh?

neway so bored now.... itz like 1am and i am doing nothing but sitting here sulking and trying to resist the temptation of continuing to read.... sad eh? SIGHHHHH

HEY GUESS WUT?! pianno wuz actually good today.... the best lesson ive had with eleana... mayb practicing DUZ make a diff lol neway i betta get off b4 i get too carried away with my thotz and babblez... much luv karrotz dreaming out

yaaaay!

2004-11-03T08:13:00.000-08:00

4 day weekend coming up soooo excited me gonna go to bed ... so dead tired nite fwends

sighz...i detest skool with my GUTz

2004-10-31T18:16:00.001-08:00

today, i wasted another day.... how gay... that rhymes.... o dear... i HATE myself... goodness... i hate quizzes as well
bible quiz- judaism
eng quiz- vocab
chem quiz- moles
acc quiz- journals
sigh... at least i practiced piano today... sigh... im trying to get over someone... i hope itz working... SIGH dang it this is terrible... im gonna go off to study... much luv

seriously.... it feels like... i have no direction whatsoever as to what my next step is...

2004-10-30T19:15:00.001-07:00

life has been kinda strange lately... itz like im walking in a dream... ironically, i am still dreaming on this blog.... sigh this is so weird... i dont think in my 15 (soon to be 16) years in my life have i felt so lost.... itz like i dont hav anything to hang on.... everything is.... "what will my average be" or "where is ____" or... just really dumb and worldly questions.... i honestly deserperately wanted to go to this sandwich run... but... im just not sure if i .... sigh itz too late neway.... i hope my motives are correct....sigh this is so ugh i feel really stupid itz like im ridiculed by everyone... i feel that way.... like what kinda friends have i made?! how shallow is this?! why duz my life have to reflect this world so much? why CANT I LEARN TO FORGIVE LIKE JESUS DID?!im really starting to get pissed off at myself.... like WUT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME type of pissed off... like im SO sad.... sad in the loser waysigh, ok im gonna shut up... i feel so stupid for thinking these thots

pondering......

2004-10-28T00:33:00.000-07:00

what if......thaz all for this blog....what if.....

The Wedding --> Thank You's from a grateful Karrot

2004-10-04T21:24:00.001-07:00

Thank You God for giving me this opportunity to witness two of Your faithful servants get married
Thank You Pastor Mavis and David for getting married and blessing ppl through your lives together...
Thank You Nevin, Brad and family for inviting me... cuz i totally dont deserve it *thanx for the dress, im still paying for it*
Thank You Jackie, Mel and Esther for being beautiful and caring bridesmaids all thru the day (esp. Jackie for tolerating me and hanging with me)
Thank You Tim gor gor, and Chris for making me laff hahahaha the things u guyz hav sed still resonate in my mind making me laff my head off! (esp. tim- thanx for yur jacket) ----> "tipsy", "tear...sluurp...*dundun* -- strong" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH i luv it! u guyz rock!

Thank You Thank You Thank You... i dont kno wut else to say.... just thanx for such a great time.... for such a great experience.... i hope we can all meet up some day again.... for bbtea... haha (CUTE GREEN SUGAR PACS FOREVER!!)

"get out... right now...itz the end of u and me" "so much for my happy ending..."

2004-09-12T11:18:00.000-07:00

dont ask me y the heck im listening to "get out" and "my happy ending" ... no i did not dump a guy... no i did not get dumped BY a guy.... lol dont worry about me im fine... i JUST like the songs.... haha.. yes... jojo's very pretty... and avril's pretty cool dont u think? lol

hmmm wut else.... ron ng is hot as usual... i found out bosco *his best friend* looks AWESOME in blu... and that hes really really good looking haha... NO IM NOT CHEATING ON MY RONNIE lol.... hmmmmmmmmm leila is pretty as usual.... hmmmm wut else.....

thaz it for now... i've been reading fanfics for like 5 hours in a row... cant stop!!! sigh... some ppl are just SO awesome talented in writing! here are some quotes that TOTALLY caught my attention...

(Tavia says) "...being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, loving someone deeply gives you courage..." <-- for my msn name i added "why do i only hav courage?" ... thaz how im feeling right now..... sigh im depressing i kno... sorry
(Leila says) "...I couldn't see the things the way she could... I always look at things the way they seem to be but never the way they are..." <-- wow deep
(Ron says) "...I know I cant control you... but I know I cant afford to lose you..." <-- Y duz he hav to b so sweeet... darn!
still need to find one from ray... lol i'll get bak on that ^_____^

neway... other than that i've been slavin' over hw.... and doing stuff i guess.... auditions for orch is on tues!!! lol clara and i were pracing yesterday for fluteeee..... lol we're playing "sonata theme" .... itz alright i guess.....lol.... lalala

well lots of ppl are wondering wut's wrong with me.... well im just kinda doubting my "identity" ... who REALLY am i? i hav u guyz ever thot of that question? for a LONG time!? .... if u think carefully u'll find that u're lost... u dont really kno.... thaz wut happend to me..... looking for answers from other ppl will only give u lies.... not like i want nemore lies.... im lying to myself.... ppl are lying me.... im lying to other ppl.... sigh.... im confusing myself..... ok lets stop talking bout this itz just blabber.

yawnz... im bored! SOMEONE ENTERTAIN ME!!!! im not allowed Twin of Brother tapes until i get like a long wknd or holidays ARRRRG i wanna punch something!!!! i want roonnnnniieeee and raaaaaay and leeeeila!!!!! >.<>

btw... i watched the friday ep of "survivor's law" omgosh.... ray is SUCH a qt.... luv it wen he smiles... luv it wen he teases myolie! SAMMUL!!!! SAMMUL LOOKS GOOOOOOD in suits! ^________^ i absolutely fell in love with the ray song in survivor's law.... lol itz awesome... can neone plz help me type out the lyrics for that? ^____^ much luv to u if u can

once again... thank u for tolerating my nonsense blabber....

I noticed that im not getting ne comments for my bloggggiez ... someone comment? plz? lol

note to self: life is not always a bowl of cherries

2004-09-06T15:02:00.000-07:00

lol... lotz of things has happend after vbs ... and vancouver... o dang just a whole pile of crappish events... lemme list them out for u

bawling ... crying my head off cuz of sum stupid arguement btwn my rents
getting a new "telephone" --- dont ask only clara knoes about this
hmmm... having a terrible time in vancouver cuz my mom wuz mad at me
vancouver itself wuz fun cuz of the chinese foooood and jap fooooood.... everything wuz just so fobby... just the way i like it
i had 2 and a half crabs the day my uncle cooked 8.... it wuz delicious.... now toronto food tastes so bland
had an okay time overall.... i read the second shopaholic.... then now i bought the THIRD BOOK WHERE SHE GETS MARRIED!!!! aaaand its half prices!!!! ITZ A GREAT BOOK FOR GIRLS... ALL GIRLS READING THIS .... PLZ CHK IT OUT! "Confessions of a Shopaholic"
hmmm.... RAY SHOW IS ENDING TONITE I WANNA CRY!
ray show is awesome... i love eternal happiness!!!!

neway getting off topic here..... lol... im pretty sure u ppl dont wanna hear how much love ron and ray so we'll just move on... lol... sigh im behind in ALL my fanfics works and readings!!! jie jie must my SO mad at me!!! =( i feel sad now... sigh

ARG SKOOL IS STARTING TOMOLO!!!! it feels like an unreality (my cuzn sez that wen i come up with a word like that... itz a sign that itz time for me to go bak to skooll) ..... sighz

neway... i want new skools shoes.... i want i want.... sigh wuz a terrible thing....i feel so materialistic.... sigh... and the next thing im gonna talk about is the "wedding" ... aww man im gonna b a hypocrite in this blog.... sigh i guess im alwyz a hypocrite

I NEED JEWELLERY TO MATCH MY DRESS!

phew got that outta me... lol neway i cant blog for my longer.... my book is waiting for me to finish it.... much luv to u all out there who actually read this... i bore myself with my thots... lol

wut a long day

2004-08-28T22:21:00.000-07:00

it pisses me off when rentz are in a bad mood and argues... i hate that... sigh im bored... i dont know... i feel that there is something that compells me NOT to go on this terrible vancouver trip that ma's sister (aunt 3) planned.... itz just SOMETHING iz botherin' me..... wutz wrong with this neway.... sigh

there is nothing for me to do.... im bak on sept 4... TWO FRIGGIN DAYZ B4 SKOOL! i cant do that! i'll die! DIE! i tell u.... freak man... im so died...

so neway... flo came over today... we didnt do much stuff... we watch Twin of Brothers and did sume stuff... she lent me her mp3 and i wuz listenin to avril.... sigh... "so much for my happy ending" lolz

neway... kawai gor gor called me today! and ACTUALLY picked up... lol i heard little girls screaming about bugs in the background... quite funny actually

lolz... sigh today... wuz a weird day.... i really dont kno wutz with me... SIGHz i got a gmail! 1000 gegabytes.... AWESOME eh? lol

blu.karrot@gmail.com

email if u want... lol neway i totally need to update b4 i leave... i dont want my readers (esp. my new gah jeh, mali to yell at me) sigh... so i better b off to do that...

start of a new term... start of new resolutions... i SWEAR that after twin of brothers and eternal happiness i will COMPLETELY STOP watching chinese soaps.... i hav made an oath... to myself... and to you as my reader... KEEP ME ACCOUNTABLE PLZZZ

neway im gonna dash now... itz getting pretty late... i still have that nasty optometrist appt to go to... hmm and i need to call hihi...

i read "CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC" as i told u last nite.... i finished it last nite..... at ONE OCLOCK.... then i fell asleep.... and my gramma found out at 4am that i fergot to turn off my light.... so i almost got in truble for that lolz.... neway im dun with my boring blabbing bout my life... drop a comment if u hav a comment

-- karrot dreamz off with luv

bridesmaid thing

2004-08-27T21:02:00.000-07:00

lolz.... wut a long story to tell.... to cut it short.... ONE nevin ONE uncle ONE future aunt ONE wedding ONE... karrot HAHAHAHAH karrot iz a bridesmaid! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

ok end of story time to go to bed

JUST KIDDING... i met some awesome ppl thru the two shopping experience FOR the wedding.... o you probably dont even get it... well lil bro's uncle is getting married *WEDDING BELLS* and lil bro's older bro asked me to b a bridesmaid... lalala so we get our dresses togeth.. and evverythings cool now

coinie is getting me a purple hat... cool huh? AND coinie is buying me a "boys are stupid throw rocks at them".... coo huh? mwahaha this is awesome

neway... this is awesome... thaz all i hav to say

-- luv from karrot.... gimme a comment! much luv

ps. i love ron, my hubby... all this wedding business reminds me of him... MWAHAH

itz been too long

2004-08-27T20:33:00.000-07:00

it bothers me how long i havnt blogged... i had to blog... itz a must

i agree with you karrot

okay stop talking to yourself this is getting scarey...

haha wtv

neway.... i've been watching TWIN OF BROTHER'S for almost... a month wuz it clark? probably... i've been falling for ron and ray over and over and over and over again.... *starry eyes* THEY'RE SO HOT!!!! .... sigh... like a week left b4 the hectic skool life starts all over again... can u blieve it? well i certainly cant..... i cant cope! lol

sigh... other than ron and ray.... vbs happened fast and ended fast >_<> such as kristie and erin, joanna and joyce =D it wuz really awesome... with last yr's crew... and the reg cool stupid AND lame games (such as tarzan jungle man and the spinning game) and this time...

with NEV BEING THE CAMERA MAN (AND I HOPE HEZ LISTENING CUZ IM YELLING AT HIM RIGH TNOW) ---> ARRRRG taking STUPID fotos and films of the crew being sillie (doing the wave... can can... dancing to ringtones --> that wuz just me btw)..... o well now thaz all over

sigh... it wuz pretty sad... today wuz the last day *tearz* ... sigh.... today wuz great.... tiring... piano.... arg that wuz bad lets not mention it.... well in the morning we had a bit of drama with ray and tav... clark and i were sooooooo DRAMATIZED we were shocked.... lol then vbs.... the usually brick thing... stand when the word build is sung.... DANG that wuz tiring

and then the kiddies were being cute... as usual... lol.... and then we hav this new thing this yr... PIGGY RIDING (kids on helpers) cute huh? i loved it.... cody, aaron, vincent, michelle, erika.... O THOSE CUTIES ARE SOOOO CUTE!!! AAAAARG

then i went feeding cody at lunch.. he is the CUTEST LITTLE KID EVER EVER EVER!! omgosh... i love him...... jus the cutest kid ever... i kept picking him up and "dancing" with him... wut a qt.......

sigh then open house... and NEVIN showed the whole world my stupidness... sigh... that wuz embarrassing.....

then blabalbal singing... etc. then itz almost time to leave >_< so sad!! and then lil bro brad asks for a PIGGY BACK RIDE im like O.o u GOTTA b kidding... lol so then i gave one to him.... he wuz kinda heavy =P if you're reading this BLAH to u lol.....

then i got a piggy back ride from him.... ^_________^ it wuz the cutest thing so comfy ar!... itz like reliving my childhood.... aw crap am i getting carried away? ok back on topic..... so that wuz it.... vbs is over..... itz dun with..... i'll wait for another year for FUN TIME! =D

-- finished dreaming... come bak for more, karrot

ps. with love lol of cos... and btw im reading a new book called "Confessions of a Shopaholic" itz awesome
pps. also... im a BRIDESMAID!! DID I TELL U YET?! lol lemme chck the other entries... if i didnt tell u yet.. i'll tell u BAIZ with love for now

wow.... itz been too long my friends + readers.... too long

2004-07-25T18:52:00.000-07:00

dear friends..... itz been so long.... 4 more dayz left until my relatives leave... im gonna miss them so SO much...... i think im gonna cry my eyeballz out again!..... ETERNAL HAPPINESS came out.... itz great.... im happy hahahahahaha

history 5 is honestly pissing me off SO SO SO SO SO baaaaaad!!!!! i hate it so much.... itz SO HARD!!!! sighz**** like a week b4 my exams.....i feel like crying

darn it! i hav NO time for nething.... itz like my summer is slipping away from me........ need to practice piano AND study whenever i hav time..... duznt that make u SO mad?! makes mee feel so sorry for those who have to take THREE theory courses AT THE SAME TIME!

lol... neway.... yea basically i hope u guyz can pray for me cuz im like DYING HERE! but there are others to pray for as well... such as my kawai gor gor... whoz got the CHICKEN POX >.< sigh... now i REALLY hope he duznt die... cuz itz possible

neway on the happier note..... i've thot of a NAME for my future son and daughter..... here it iz...

Jacob
Matthew
Enoch

as for daughters

Ruth
Esther
dont laff at me for this but.... THEODORA *hussssh*

lol so ya... as for chinese names..... my gramma and aunt wuz laffing at my attempts at making chinese namez!!! hahahaha.... makes me laff thinking of it.....

i like the name YUN *as in happy* and for guyz the name CHEE *as in wise* ..... so i put them together... and then tell me it sounds like a buddhist monk's name! LAFFING AT ME! and they're like.... "yur gonna marry some guy whoz last name is CHU *pronounced PIG in chinese* and yur girl's eng name will be DUMB DUMB CHU!"

im like : ARRRRG lol thaz it..... gtg now showa... i smell like oriental cooking with LOTS of oil... baiz much luv im off to dream bout...... AHEM hahahahahha ron baiz

hmmmmz

2004-06-27T15:43:00.000-07:00

yaaaay hk relatives are comin overrrrr... so happy.... heh....

so yea im not gonna b bloggin for like 10-12 dayz? lol.... so yea.... lol no worries KARROT WILL BE BAK TO DREAM lolz.....

happy bday to my sam sam gor gor and kawai gor gor

[no title] --- [cant think of one]

2004-06-26T11:05:00.000-07:00

hello... long time no bloggle....... letseeee my relativez are coming ova sooooooon mwahahahahahaha cant wait to see my REAL lil sis ^_______^ yaaaay so excited...... dude man im SO FAT!!! I GAINED 2 POUNDS!!! >_____< waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! so im like forcing myself to swim off 10 POUNDS so that i dont look as fat lol.....

lar lar lar... watching ANGELS OF MISSION another chinese soapy lol.... sonija kwok, charmaine sheh *my hero*, shirley yeung *SHE ALMOST STOLE RON FROM ME!!!* and patrick tam etc.....

thaz all fer now bloggle lata

ps.> TOMOLO IS SAM SAM GOR GOR AND KAWAI GOR GORZ BDAAAAY!!!! so excited for dem!!! dey're turrrrning SIXTEEEEEN yaaaaaaaaaay!!!

scrunches her face up

2004-06-23T20:16:00.000-07:00

got highlights.... got a real cool manicure

sigh... readers may know that.... itz once again... one of those PISSY CRAPPIN DAYS OF KARROT! i hate this... I ABSOLUTELY DONT KNOW Y IM SO RESTLESS! love is NOT supposed to BE like this! i HATE IT I HATE IT... i think im having one of those freaky silent tempertantrums... I HATE THIS CRAP! can someone plz save me?! can THAT someone plz save me?! PLZ?

good luck on yur youth delegate trip lil bro brad..... hope u do what God tells u to do.... and do it to the best of yur ability! gah jeh is there for u to cheer u on!

lol feeling kinda dull... kinda sad... kinda... blah? haha

2004-06-22T18:05:00.000-07:00

karrot feels weird today... i dno y.... karrot feels diff today.... wutz so weird? the weird thing is I DONT KNO! sigh... lol sigh.......... i wuz reading fantasy stuff yest..... and... um I FINALLY FINISHED The Assasins of Tamurin it wuz a great book... about how an assasin girl had to kill the king of this fantasy land..... and she falls in love with the guy.... and um.... she has to face consequences and stuff....

but there wuz a part.... where the girl read this poem..... and .... i felt how she felt at that moment cuz this is the short poem she read...

"Dreaming in the cherry orchard
hear my song:
A day without him,
is ten nights long."

thaz like EXACTLY how i feel.... *SIGH*

...dream a lil dream...

2004-06-20T19:26:00.000-07:00

today... wuz a fun... but not so fun day ^_____^ i guess it wuz alrighty.... well i went to scarborotown centre today to drop my lil bro off at shrek 2 (some bday party thing) so my mom/dad half dragged half lectured me to go out to scarboro to SHOP FOR 3 STRAIGHT HOURS... now... u may feel a little puzzled... y would KARROT A PURE FEMALE DECLINE SUCH AN OPPORTUNITY?!?! --> rentz cash and a SHOPPING MADNESS add a large mall...... wuldnt i run to the door to get out of the house??!?!?!? well u seeee karrot is reading a cooool fantasy boookie... and she culdnt put it down this morning... so she (I) grumpily put down the book and went to see if there were any showtimes for hp!!!! and of cos to my sad misfortune ==> there WUZNT!!! therefore i went shopping.......

it wuz ok fun.... i got A DRESS TO GO TO MISS KIM'S WEDDING IN!!!!!! ITZ SOOOOO PRETTTY itz a nice blu..... but itz kinda.... um showy....... who cares just wear a jacket over it i tell myself lol.... itz gonna b great!!!! GREAT!!! hahahahahaha hrms... other than thaaaat......

I WENT ON A MADNESS SHOPPING THINGY IN THE DISNEY STORE WHIHC WUZ DOING HUGE HUGE PROMOTION SALES....... herez wut i bought.................... NEW PJ'S!!!! NEWWW NEWWWWWWWW PJS!!!! that sez "dream a little dream" on it.... winnie, eeyore, piglet and tigger pj's reeeely nice... AND I GOT A FINDING NEMO BEACH TOWEL .... SOOOO CUTE!!!! WITH THE BLOWFISH ON IT!!! itz the cutttest tHing EVERR..... THEN i got a MOVIE MIX CD!!!! with ALL THE COOL DISNEY SONGS ON IT!!!! lik -----> "cant help falling in love" - lilo and stitch ------> "dig it" - holes -------> "drama queen" - [lindsay lohan] -------> "cinderella" - cheetah girls ------> "supergirl" - princess diaries...... others others many more

lol so aft that my mooood got pretty good...... and i got some fffooooood into my tummmy so that wuz all goood

den..... tonite we had din out with my relatives :::: my cuzn connie (corrrrnie) is going to hk with my jolly aunt..... >_< *sobbles*..... i'll miss dem a lotta!!!!! yupz..... me and jacky my guy cuzn, had a "rock paper scissors" competition.... whoever lost had to drink water..... we ended up ordering like 50 gallons of water... and the waitress thot we were nutz..... lol i almost peeeed in my pants on the ride home.... lolz.... yuppers... that wuz all fun cept for the saying bi part....

neway here are some lyrics..... bring u the essence of the song... one of wut i consider my "fave" even tho the lyrics dont suit me THAT much...... is

cinderella - performed by: cheetah girls

When I was just a little girl,
My mama used to tuck me into bed,
And she'd read me a story.

It always was about a princess in distress
And how a guy would save her
And end up with the glory.

I'd lie in bed
And think about
The person that I wanted to be,
then one day I realized
The fairy tale life wasn't for me.

[CHORUS]
I don't wanna be like Cinderella,
Sitting in a dark, cold, dusty cellar,
Waiting for somebody to come and set me free. (Come and set me free)
I don't wanna be like someone waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
on a horse of white
Unless somebody's on my side
Don't wanna be
No, no, no one else.
I'd rather rescue myself.

Someday im gonna find Someone
who wants my soul, heart and mind
Whos not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand im happy just the way i am
Dont need nobody taking care of me
(i will be there)I will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me
when i give myself then it has got to be an equal thing

[Bridge]
I can slay (I can slay) my own dragons. (My own dragons)
I can dream my own dreams. (My own dreams)
My knight in shining armor (shining armor) is me.
So I'm gonna set me free.

[Chorus]

thaz it... and as josh (gd 9) sez.... "peace out"
good nite friends.... im in need of my beauty sleep..... wait wut beauty?

wind chimes

2004-06-18T18:54:00.000-07:00

the sound of wind chimes.... soothes me and my inner thoughts...

*smiles softly* i like it....

good ol' dessert and a funny valentine for karrot

2004-06-18T18:52:00.000-07:00

sigh..... itz been a ruff day.... honestly... today wuznt a good day with my parents... therez just SOMETHING wrong with me...... i feel like rebelling today... not good... wen that happens karrot shuld just lock herself in her room and not meet anyone....

im tired and sad.... i got my first histo 5 test today... it wuz pathetic.... i got 23/69 ---> pathetic? .... i hate it lol.... honestly my stupidity really annoys me..... instead of putting 1800s for the composer pplz dates.... i put 1900s!!! FOR ALL OF THEM!!!! MAKING ME LOSE ALL MY EASY MARKS!!! on top of that... i culdnt focus this morning OR last nite... so i didnt study much AT ALL!!!! the worst thing is that.... the teacher GAVE US THE QUESTIONS B4 HAND..... sigh.... itz all my fault... i hate this thing.

on the lighter note.... i bought most of my bookiez today... that wuz arite..... and i washed my face with biotherm AND a nice masque to go with that..... it wuz great.... i felt all lovely after........ but sigh!!!! STUPIDLY ENUFF 5 pimples appeared on the SIDE of my face..... so it ruined my "self-perspective" of myself..... this is awful...... sigh o well lol that wuznt a lighter note

guess wut karrot ate today?!?!?! A REALLY REALLY GOOOOOD dessssert it wuz DEEEELICIOUS!!! yumz.... it wuz sweet soup ^_____^ with papaya, almond, syrup and suet yee [direct translation = snow ____] <--- lol i dont really know *er... clear stuff in flower shaped thingy... i think itz a type of root* lol.... itz delicious..... so i wuz a lil cheered up aft that.....

but another thing that makes me sad EVEN aft THE DESSERT is .... something that just makes me feel empty inside........ i dno wut it is... itz just a void/ gap inside me...... honestly man....... sigh hope my feelings would improve tomolo....

to....... continue(?) with that thought..... i would like to add this piece of REALLY OLD oldie song that a learned about and listened to today....-------> taken from MY FUNNY VALENTINE by richard rodgers, done in 1937... the following are the lyrics...

My Funny Valentine (Only the Refrain)

My funny valentine
sweet comic valentine,
you make me smile with my heart
your looks are so laughable
unphotographable
yet you're my favourite work of art

kinda sounds weird to u.... i kno... but the song with the lil swing melody really...... well, you can say it this way: hit me.

lol a post again..... RMB to comment

2004-06-17T09:12:00.000-07:00

many things to speak of

I GOT A NEW GOR GOR!!!!! ^_________^ yes i sed eight.... but there is STILL only eight.... that is because there is one i hav disowned.... but... no matter my new gor gor is my FIRST KOREAN GOR GOR!!! YAAAAY -----> matt!!!! hahahahahahha

lar lar lar other than thaaaat.... i re-watched the ending of DOC.... i cried.... again and again........ i dont know.... the characters are just so..... similar to ...... um me? lol..... so it made me cry........ im still totally in luv with nick..... hez just so .... sweet lol arite gonna go now im not gonna blog again today.... i need to study for that idiotic test from Mrs. Vorest..... ARGH the histo 5 one..... it really makes me mad..... arite baiz then

YAAAAY ppl plz more commmmentz!!!!

sollie readers... im boring u

2004-06-16T20:40:00.000-07:00

ONE MORE THING TO SAY!!!!

[下一站彩虹] ---> dream of colors

is really really gooood.... sigh!!!! i love nick!!!! I LOVE NICK!!!! I LOOOOVE NICK!!!

..... another bloggggle!!! hahahahah life is funnnn

2004-06-16T20:36:00.000-07:00

HOLA AMIGOS!!!! hahahahah arite arite here iz wut i wanna say

to my gooood friend twigz who might not b reading this at all *frownz* o wellz

HAPPY HAPPY BELATED BDAY!!!! I HOPE U HAD A WONDERFUL DAY!!!

thaz all i had to say....
had a mediocur *gosh i dont kno how to speel* day today... saw garfield.... it really wuznt that gooood o wellllz... STILL WAITING TO SEE HP!!!! neone wanna seeee it wif meee? ha ha

dedicated to timothy luk aka mr. politician blockhead

2004-06-16T19:57:00.000-07:00

im HY weeeeeee woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

comment!!!

loookiiieeee itz a poem bout my babeee nohohon --> green camel

2004-06-16T08:57:00.000-07:00

arite arite listen up ppl i found this poem on the net.... and like itz bout nohohon... so here goes

Like the murmur of water,
like the willful streaming clouds.
Let us live "nohohon"! (without a care)

A comfortable afternoon, gentle voices over there.
Suddenly, a bird flying around that tree came to me,
then I found myself falling into the sea of tranquility.
After having a cup of green tea, I feel like playing guitar.
Looking at the singing people, they are all smiling and relaxed.

It's not so difficult to live like that.
Feel like sailing on a large boat
but don't forget your heart of exploration.
Not to be too happy and not to be too sad.
Why don't you walk with a good rhythm?
It will give you the flair to live "nohohon" (without a care).

lol might not make sense AT ALL to u lol.... cuz it duznt make sense to me either ^___^ hahahah funny but itz bout my BABBEEEEE heheheh well well im off... gonna blog lata on.... sigh.... hav an sc meeting today.... lalalalalalalalalala SOMEONE PLZ COMMENT IT SEEMS LIKE NO ONE IS READING THIS!!!! *tearz*

waaaaah!!!

2004-06-14T19:37:00.000-07:00

THIRD POST!!! u ppl must be getting scared.... lol... hmmmm arite where to begin

im planning to...... WATCH DREAM OF COLORS FROM EP 15-20 OVER AGAIN!!!! awful waste of time i kno....... but they're just sitting there waiting for me.... to watch lol..... soooo therefore i WILL hahahahahahha itz great.... experience the LOVE again lol

arite other than that..... theres also a SCENE in DOC *dream of colors* i really wanna share with u.... itz the airport scene........ here goes, im gonna put it in bold

she wuz sad and she wuz standing around in the airport saying her last goodbye to her friends and family... she tried to look over their shoulders for nick..... he wuznt there.... she sighed and continued to walk.... she looked up from looking at the ground and saw nick walking toward her

smiling.

she smiled back as he gave her his scarf saying "michelle u gave this to me... but i want u to keep it... so itz like me being there with u" she smiled at his thoughtfulness. he took out a can of candy... a token of their love for one another and shook it slightly reminding her to eat it on the plane.... from her bag she pulled out the same brand of canned candy and smiled... she handed it to him. He grinned and said simply "Buh Bai"... she nodded almost crying... and walked away not looking behind her. Nick pulled her to him and embraced her. She cried and smiled at the same time savouring their last chance of affection...... he let her go and she got on the plane.

on the plane, she immediately put the scarf around her neck and she opened the tin can of candy shaking all the candy out of it.....

in the airport, he immediately popped open michelle's can and shook the candy out....

a note slipped out of both cans.

nick read pensievely "A fairy tale is coming true... the little fairy has found love... but must fly away to create her dreams... she will come back to her little prince...."

michelle read with tears in her eyes "You are my rainbow michelle, your prince will wait..."

my prince... will wait.

[no title]

2004-06-14T19:32:00.000-07:00

HOLA! FRIENDS!!! GUESS WUT?!?!?!?!?! good news..... well kinda bad.... but good in many ways....... I HAVE PASSED MY C4 EXAM!!!!!! PASSED --> 65% itz really sad in that way lol

and and and .... i hav PASSED MY HAR 5 EXAM AS WELL!!!!! PASSED ---> 67% itz really sad in that way too lol

but.... i've worked hard... i hav nothing more to say than... i am relieved... the worst obstacle.... is over. the end.

dream of colors

2004-06-14T14:02:00.000-07:00

i've finished both series today.... itz been great.... out of the two series.... OF COS dream of colors wuz better.... ABSOLUTELY SWEEEET only one word to describe it SWEEET!!! it made me cry!! the ending made me cry!!!! thinking of it makes me cry!!!! itz so sweet it made me cry can u blieve it?!?!?! he wuz really sweet... nick i mean.... i cant wait till "my guy" says it to me..... he wuz really really really sweet.... flowers, candy... awwww the sweetest thing EVER like it just means so much to her....... like it did for me... i dont kno y... but i feel like i AM myolie wu or something lol... itz funny.... but i loved the ending... the airport scene..... well the pull hug thing kinda cliche but no matter... alwyz makes my tears fall..... sigh.... hope that happens to me someday.

"You're like my rainbow..."
"She's special in my heart... she's happy and she's lovely... i love her, but i really dont know how to say it..."
-- nick yau

sigh... so sweet so sweet.

seriously.... it feels like... i have no direction whatsoever as to what my next step is...

2004-06-12T13:32:00.000-07:00

sigh... honestly.... after these two series..... To Love with No Regrets and Dream of Colors my summer is pretty much... wake up... eat... study a bit... piano swimming... sleep... eat...sleep... eat... sleep......... I WANT SOMETHING TO DO.... I REALLY WANT TO DO DO DO DO DO something im so frustrated with myself.... it feels like im wasting my life!!! sigh....

arite... so then finally today i hav realized that it is rather stupid of me to laff at see lai for watching soaps.... but now i realize the things i call "chinese series" ARE soaps...... lol sigh the part where elaine goes "i really cant marry *sniff sniff*" i almost laffed... cuz ... sigh... so typical soap... if u know wut i mean....

sigh... neway lots of things to sigh bout..... seriously... ppl ARE MOODY... its never been so evident to me b4..... sigh... WUT IS HAPPENING TO MY FAMILY?!?!?!??!?!?! i really wanna cry.... wut is going on?! wut?! someone tell me .... really i hate this I HATE THIS!!!!! plz someone teach me how to live.... i losing control of everything. I want to Cry.

btw victa sai low left for hk today... HAV FUN IF YUR READING THIS LAR SAI LOW!! sigh..... i dno... i cant wait till hk relatives come over... hope that'd settle my ma and pa's quarrels.... now off to dry my tears....

sick

2004-06-11T20:38:00.000-07:00

guess wut? fergot to tell u... im sick.... I MEAN THIS IS TERRIB!! WHO GETS SICK AT THE BEGINNING OF SUMMER?!?!??! .... *frowns slightly**sniffles**coff coff* sigh.. yea im tired... im off to bed...... lol sorry tof blabbing again

summer... i've wait long enuff

2004-06-11T20:21:00.000-07:00

third day of summer.... nothing to do but histo 5, piano, swimming and endless serial after serial of tvb.... sigh... i think life is getting a little boring... in NEED of spicing up..... plz.... life gimme something BETTER to do.... i mean SIGH i shuld b grateful... but i dont feel like im using my days well enuff.... sigh... im gonna learn to bake and knit this summer... cool eh? cant wait till those get started....

btw i pierced my ears.... hurt a bit... not a lot... just a bit.... sigh...... itz been 3 days since summer started... i think my summer will be a boring but NICELY WASTED and soap operaishy summer.... sound fun? sigh... yea i really think i wuld b.... but.... i feel like somethings wrong.... therez SOMETHING i need to change.... help? lol... someone? God? plz? sigh..... i dno.... but endless episodes here i come again

currently watching DREAM OF COLORS and TO LOVE WITH NO REGRETS .... quite a good mixture of series i wuld say..... tvb has improved a bit.... i absolutely ADORE nick yau's character... cool... caring... i just dont know y... but im growing attached to this character..... NOT the man.... but the CHARACTER.... sigh.... the rest of the cast did well...... or else i wuld not b so convinced that ELLA KWAN (sharon chan: matt's gf) is the most EVIL THING in the WORLD! lol.... shez not but she sure acts like it.... sigh..... im just luvin' the way nick yau looks at mich.... will HE look at ME that way?.... i truely hope so... bcuz.... ok nvm.....
***** OK diff sub now..... onto TO LOVE WITH NO REGRETS now.... muk bao did a cute job i think..... again..... very convincing.... bosco is a nono for me this time... i mean WUTZ WRONG WITH HIM!!! he duznt look good AND hez mean except for the scenes with that little maid... now THAZ cute... lol as for amy kwok (siu lai)? SHE LOOKS SO SO SO SO MUCH LIKE HELEN ITS LIKE FREAKING ME OUT!!! bit very cute and funny... LOVE her style of acting..... yups... lol blabbered again... sigh......

lalala neway... told u sum of my thots... might go'n sleep now... getting pretty tired..... ken's bday in 2 days...... am i excited? lol yea... sure... say wut u like... i tolerated ken ANOTHER year.... luvya ken sai low... happy bday... gnite readers... itz been a long night.... elaine broke up with nick.... it wuz sad.... better b off to bed... my thots... are running wild.

a poem again

2004-06-06T07:49:00.001-07:00

it's exam time.... two more left.... i dont know y... but i dreamt this.... many of u may b wondering who "he" is... but i dont know myself....

Only a Dream

It was a night of great fatigue
I sank into my soft pillows: falling asleep
Immediately.

I saw her.
Walking against the wind;
Her small body shuddering.
Cold.

He pulled her close and wrapped
his arms around her.
Giving her warmth.
She delicately placed her head
on his shoulder.

She looked up at him but
She did not touch him because
She knew that if she did,
It would be over... it would fade...
It was only a dream...

He held her fragile trembling hands
Assuring her that it was all right,
Keeping her secure in his warm embrace.
It was only a dream...

All is gone now.
It faded.
I awoke. The dream left me cold.
I trembled and pulled my blankets over my body
And lay back into a light doze.
It was only a dream...

I realize now
that she was I and I was she but
It was only a dream...

thaz the end..... sigh....

on the lighter note........

2004-05-27T20:12:00.000-07:00

GUESS WUT GUYZ?! just FOUR more pages of gandhi notes to make.... AND 4-5 pgs of an essay to right!!!! fun? *very...* lol funnily... we had mrs. nanos for TWO CLASSES!!! *sigh*

how sad.... lol funnily... clara/kat pointed out that shez like miss hannigan
"we luv u mrs. nanos" itz funny cuz itz the same amount of syllables

pissed....

2004-05-27T13:16:00.000-07:00

sigh... wut a day... lotz of stupid crap happened... itz tearing me apart... EWWW BSB!! *backstreet boys* lol.... lalalala... THE REASON! WEEE luv it... lol.... sigh... u must b b wonderin y im pissed... well um SOMEONE... just made me... um feel terrib... i dno... sighz.... i hope that person wuld just UNDERSTAND how i feel... itz just... making me feel like im not wanted... or liked.... and he/she just HAS to stand in the way... sighz gtg for now... TO DO GANDHI STUFFF bibi much luv

2004-05-26T21:01:00.000-07:00

Another work of gibberish… sigh… itz just words in my mind… words on a page… just words put together… I’ve decided to call this one…

Meaningless

I’ve been waiting for you…
I’ve been waiting for you…

I don’t understand why you just can’t see…
I don’t understand why you just can’t feel…
I don’t know what I’m doing…
I don’t know what I’m waiting for…
But I will wait… until I find you… until I see that my waiting has been worthwhile…

I’m waiting…

dreamz

2004-05-26T19:24:00.000-07:00

until now i hav not noticed
how much i think of u...
the intensity i feel...
when i feel your eyes upon me...
when i close my eyes, all i see is u...
my heart flutters at your name...
when i look into your eyes...
itz like i cant breathe
when i talk to u
itz like i cant speak

im dreaming of u... dreaming of me... dreaming of u...
u utter tender words of love to me...
but it is just a dream... just a dream......

my crazy inspiration.... many allusions to, Connie Fan, Liz Phair, and otherz

karrotz bored.....

2004-05-26T14:22:00.000-07:00

im sick and tired of skool work.... *sigh* mooon sai lar! HEHEHEHEH welllll itz gonna b ALL over sooon very very very sooooon har har har.... dude man! sighz... no complaining... better get ta work... just logged in to blabber har har

hola! im at skool.... hehehehehehe

2004-05-26T06:47:00.000-07:00

yaaaay!!! wussup folks jones is making fun of me -.- itz so meaaaan!!!!! noooooo heheheheh well well bible test!! sighz... screwtape..... doooodeeeedoooooooooo lar lar lar.... hmmmz letz go herez KATTEY FOOOFOOOO with a msg heyhey!! ugh!! im soo depressed... teachers!! soo mch work >.< "stressed is just desserts spelled backwards" WWEEEEE KATTEY!!!! melody and sunshine are being mean to me... neway..... lar lar lar ... gtg now .... gosh..... stupid Bible test.... hurry and pray for me thx man... biz luvyaz

just wanted to say.........

2004-05-25T19:35:00.000-07:00

that my hair smells goooood

phew wut a long day....

2004-05-25T14:56:00.000-07:00

sigh... lotz of stuff happened.... seriously... i need to start getting my act togetha for the end of the year... itz coming FAST AND HARD! aaagh... sigh im gonna miss SO MANY PPL!! like.... MY WHOLE CLASS.... all the happy times... hahaha sigh.... all the sad times.... sigh! im gonna miss everyone!!!! sighz but NO MORE SKOOOOL WORK HAR HAR HAR lolz... haha this'll capture the moment listen to this folks

Jones: Have you ever felt like a part of u was alive and another part of you dead? *retorical question*

Drew: Yea, when my leg was asleep...

Class: *rofl!!* hahahah

that wuz hilarious... herez another one... haha this made my day yesterday *har har to spongebob fans*

Spongebob: I don't UNDERSTAND wut we're doing wrong!!!

Patrick: *in his DUH voice* I don't understand anything...

HAHAHAHA yea... i laff at the weirdest things... lol... sighz....
but after awhile wen u look around and find that no one is laffing with u... u go... *oh* ... ahem... heh... im normal... heh.... sigh.... if life culd alwyz be such simplicity as that in spongebob..... life wuld be so much more fun.... sighz...... i've been listening to really good musix.... steven cravis stuff.... sigh "thru the kaleidoscope", "land of make belief", "first light", "the hundredth monkey", "heart of hearts"..... i encourage u ppl to go and chck that out itz pretty cool.... the music flows in my soul..... herez the URL

For thru the kaleidoscope
For first light, heart of hearts
For land of make belief, the hundredth monkey

yuppers... other than that... feeling kinda sad bout jones thingy... sigh.. yea... he might b leaving..... sigh... hope God uses him WHEREVER he goes... sighz..... and i sincerely hope that ppl would pray for him the right way....... sighz

sighz... so many probs seem to b coming up nowadays..... sigh i seriously dno y.... my rentz are at it, .... sigh..... a lotta friends like gors and daddis are havin probs.... and all that crap.... sigh..... im praying...... sigh........ hope u ppl feel betta

dudes.... stick with God... he'll help u out..... just keep praying and hoping.... cuz God will never let u fall without picking u up aft..... so rmb.... if i can smile for u during these hard times in my life... i hope u'd sincerely smile bak for me... and smile bak at me... with love and tenderness

-- sighz from karrot......

i hate this thing.....!

2004-05-24T13:27:00.000-07:00

families.... wut duz that word suggest to u? love? smoochy kisses? hugz? AGGGGGH!!!! seoriusly! i hate this crap... my family is seriously bout to break apart.... my mom IS CONTINUOUSLY CALLING ME _ _ _ _ and i feel sick of that crap... then my dad... starts telling my ma off... my bro isnt being good AT ALL.... crying and yelling and crap like that wen i tried to help him with piano!!!! I HATE THIS CRAP!!!! last nite... my mom wuz FRIGGING PISSED AT ME! and i sat here almost in tears... and NO ONE wuz there for me.... i felt so sad...... sigh it feels like i just cant get nething togeth.... itz pissing me off..... and making me all sad... thaz all for now blog... ttyl....

happi...sad...who am i?

2004-05-23T10:47:00.001-07:00

today... hmmm woke up 12:30pm.... quite interesting.... i had morning breath... and i had to of cos wash my face and all..... so yea.... washing my face... and all of a sudden i look in the mirror and rmb wut jones sed bout how "we really dont kno who we are".... i think of myself... and reflect.... who really AM i...... sigh.... i thinking and thinking and still dont hav an answer.......... i swear... i will find one someday.... questions need answers..... esp this one......

arite.... the day progresses... itz now almost 2pm.... im sposed to b eating lunch... but i'd rather blog first b4 my thots escape.... i dno if u readers of this blog... this boring blabberish blog... my blog.... readers of my blog... have read a book called
Screwtape Letters ..... well this book sez that in humans there is the LAW OF UNDULATION *life goes up and down and up and down... etc. so on and so forth*... i think i hav experienced that today...... here are just SOME examples for today.....in the morning... i felt like i wuz the UGLEEEEST gurl on this planet.... but then afterwards... i wuz like OMGOSH!!! a pimple went away!!! so i wuz happy and i felt a TAD prettier..... and another thing... my spiritual life...... well on like last tues or something like that... i started praying and devos again... but i stopped on wed...... then it came bak today... i felt the urge to seek God... itz so strange......

*sighz* yesterday... wuz another day well wasted... i problly used up like 4 hrs of Internet AGAIN!!! AAAAAAAA sigh........ ron ng fanfics, neopets, and orisinal.... *sigh* didnt get much work dun... just did some math.... SIGH!! again... i will say.... exams are coming up.... im doomed..... adios amigos for now... bak on lata to blog once again... bout my misfortunes and my happinesses...

ps. went shopping today at bv.... sigh i saw the shrek thingy up and the troy thingy up on the cinema thingys...... i swored to myself that aft the BLASTED CIVIX EXAM im gonna go see 3 movies one after the other: hp then shrek then troy... or ne order.... im gonna see em i swear it.... o and... PRAISE GOD FOR OXY PADS!!!! for those idiots out there who dont hav a clu wut that is..... oxy pads arent for menstruation... they're used to get rid of pimples... IN WHICH CASE I HAV A LOT! so neway... oxy pads are the best.... SO ALWAYS REMEBER:one oxy pad a day...keeps those uglee pimples away! *repeat**repeat**and repeat once more* hahaha im NOT advertising... and yes da karrot is hy very hy weeeeee woooooooooooooo har har ---- karrot has dreamed off

sigh work...work... and more work...

2004-05-22T14:14:00.000-07:00

so much to do.... tooo little time to accomplish it all..... sigh..... i dno... life's been good to me..... and God is working in my life....... sighz...... i really shuld get started on my work... but i want to blabber for a bit first....lar lar lar..... with exams rapidly approaching... i feel like i shall DIE!! DIIIIEEEEE!!! sigh... u kno wut i change my mind... better get offline b4 i get in truble... sighz... ttyl my friends... ONTO my most dread thing: h o m e w o r k *dun dun dun dunnnnnn dun dun dun dunnnnnnn*

hey... this is my first post.... my very first post.....

2004-05-20T12:31:00.000-07:00

today... wuz a strange but a nonetheless very fun day.... sigh.... itz been busy ... life has been very busy.... yesterday... i won.... i won an election... i became the NEW STUDENT LIAISON for next yr's student council... i wuz SO SO HAPPY... it wuz like a dream ... like a dream to me.... the happiest part is not that i got the job... but itz cuz... I LOVE THE NEW COUNCIL!!! herez the list of ppl: matt chung as prez, miriam paas as vp, enoch ng as promo, allie as sec, aaron as trez and ME AS NSL!!!! YAAAAAY!!! i wuz sooo happy.... friends hugged, laffed, *good jobbed*, hand shakes, sigh.... sooo much luv.... but... duffel bag looked so sad............... i feel.... sigh....... itz like a dream..... chris (the fallen angel dude) said... "u culd do it, i trust u to do it"..... and i DID im so happy...... im really really happy.... today..... rhyme ignored me... i caught kanga looking at me a few times and i called derek a PENGUIN!!! hahahahaha .... sigh... life is fun..... kanga voted for me.... that is also one of the reasons y i wuz happy.... not only that... but i also i doubted kawai... haha i thot he'd vote for derek... but he voted me toooo!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

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no

glimpse of march break

wut to say? wut to do?

...secret serenade...

prayer

a poem from long ago... i think it still applies

why am i being so stupid again

sigh nightmares

a stupid blog

jacqueline has no patience

"how come i'm writing again?" - quote jac

im bored and im hoping for a snowday!

a regular day...at skool...

hellooooo

happy new year

test..

the incredibles

thank u God

shalalalalala hiccup

at skool.... supposedly studying sap

happy bday tvb!!!

obsession

work work work

duuuude inuyasha and sesshomaru is SO hot

lol...posting AGAIN

aftermath... i am now sixteen

sweet sixteen* _gonna spread my wings_

hehehehe

yaaaay!

sighz...i detest skool with my GUTz

seriously.... it feels like... i have no direction whatsoever as to what my next step is...

pondering......

The Wedding --> Thank You's from a grateful Karrot

"get out... right now...itz the end of u and me" "so much for my happy ending..."

note to self: life is not always a bowl of cherries

wut a long day

bridesmaid thing

itz been too long

wow.... itz been too long my friends + readers.... too long

hmmmmz

[no title] --- [cant think of one]

*scrunches her face up*

lol feeling kinda dull... kinda sad... kinda... blah? haha

...dream a lil dream...

wind chimes

good ol' dessert and a funny valentine for karrot

lol a post again..... RMB to comment

sollie readers... im boring u

..... another bloggggle!!! hahahahah life is funnnn

dedicated to timothy luk *aka mr. politician blockhead*

loookiiieeee itz a poem bout my babeee *nohohon* --> green camel

waaaaah!!!

[no title]

dream of colors

seriously.... it feels like... i have no direction whatsoever as to what my next step is...

sick

summer... i've wait long enuff

a poem again

on the lighter note........

pissed....

dreamz

karrotz bored.....

hola! im at skool.... hehehehehehe

just wanted to say.........

phew wut a long day....

i hate this thing.....!

happi...sad...who am i?

*sigh* work...work... and more work...

hey... this is my first post.... my very first post.....

scrunches her face up

dedicated to timothy luk aka mr. politician blockhead

loookiiieeee itz a poem bout my babeee nohohon --> green camel

sigh work...work... and more work...